Couldn't I?

Couldn't I cry just once in my life
Without remembering the past and the pain?
Couldn't I borrow just one golden day
To free me from these chains?

Couldn't I love just once in my life
Without pulling away from their touch
Couldn't my heart stop shaking in fear
And give up leaning on this crutch?

Couldn't I sing just once in my life
Without hating the way that I sound?
Couldn't I like the sweet melodies
That leave my heart in bounds?

Couldn't I laugh just once in my life
Without being covered with guilt?
Couldn't I listen to everything here
Without leaving me killed?


nice to know that some people found me. heh. kinda makes me feel warm and fuzzy like the fascinating cheese we found in the fridge...ah, sorry, i was helping with cleaning out the fridge and some of the stuff we found was just...well, let's say...interesting science experiments...

Don't Leave Me

Don't leave me alone here
In this place where my thoughts consume me
Don't let me realize
All the things that I could do
Don't tell me
That none of this is real
Because I've felt it coming
In this place where words mean nothing
Please, don't leave me alone here
I don't want to do what I'm doing
Take the knife out of my hand
And don't leave me alone here.


and before people start freaking out, i didn't write this about me, it's about someone else. so chill. no worries, i only feel like this when i'm working. and i really hate my job. a lot. i hate it. but i love the pay. at least it's only for the summer.

Divisi

What need have I of emotions?

You must run
You must run!
You must save us!
There is no hope
No hope!
We are doomed!
And there is naught
We can do...

I must maintain this distance

We will kill them all!
The fools,
They see nothing
But pretend great knowledge
They deserve death
Tear them apart
Draw blood from them
Listen to their screams...

I must not allow them control

Come, taste of us
See the beauty
There are hidden things
We can show you
Come, come
Follow me into this veil
Of passion...

I must build a glass wall

This is what we deserve
We deserve this blood
Pouring from our skin
We deserve this pain
raging in our heart
We must not
Continue to live...

It only ever happened once, Kaida
It will never happen again.

Dudes

my mom was highly uncomfotable with the quizzy thing i took, so i deleted it. any advice what my new addy should be?

I'm Crazy

Top 5 Reasons to Keep A Job
1) car
2) computer
3) xbox live
4) phone line
5) i hate begging off my mom

i actually like my job. so i think that i'm mental. and really, it's not bad. i just look stuff up, call people, and put it in an excel sheet. woohoo. and my team is really fun. they all make fun of each other. which is kool cuz i fit in just fine. and i'm getting paid $9.35 an hour. so that makes it all good. and i'm tired, so i can't think of anything else to say...oh yeah, go take my quiz! (if you know halo2...)