Annie

I wish that I wasn't guilty
Of hiding what I am
That I showed people what they wanted
And kept the rest of it in
I wish that I could say
That I was truthful with you
But I can't let you know
The pain I'm going through
It takes so much of me
To keep writing this down
So please think kind things
When you finally find out
And I promise that I won't hide
If you ever find my heart
And I swear that I would tell you
If I knew where to start...

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Red Rose

One red rose
To wish all the hurt away
And thorns to prick me
Every day

One blossom red
To mock my shame
And thorns to prick me,
Take my blame

One more tear
I break not bend
And thorns to prick me
In the end.

For the Sexually Abused Girls...

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This is to show support for all the girls who have been raped, molested, or otherwise sexually abused.

*Kaida, death is not the answer, nor will it ever be. It will never happen again, this i promise.
rose from punkchique

Back By Popular Demand

alright, alright, i'm posting, is this better???? anyway, i got a new computer, and before people start cheering for me *cue chirping crickets and dead silence*, let me just say that it took 4 paychecks to get it. i wanted a computer from wal-mart, a cheap one, like $3 hundred or something. well, my parents took me to best buy and i went to look at the games, cuz well, there'a new one for xbox *destroy all humans!!!!!!!!! oops, sorry* and i wanted to play it. i left my mom alone for no more than a half hour, and she had spent 15 hundred dollars!!!!! *flying cows, i don't even have that much in my account!!!!* alright, so it's a really feaking nice computer, and i got three games for it, but still, i mean really, that's just a little over the top. but i'm not complaing. faster than the other two computers that i have access to.

so um, what else am i supposed to say?? all my friends *alright, my two friends, the only two i've got* are both on vacation at the moment out of state. woo for them. i'm stuck back here going to band rehearsals *she's making us march in the freaking middle of the day!!! for 4 hours!!! man, what is she, insane??? uhhh, yes* and working at my well paying and dreadfully boring job. anyone want to trade whatever the hell it is that they're doing for my life??? oh, yeah, here's the highlight of my summer: i'm starting my legendary campaign on both halo games. well, guess that's about it.

oh yeah, i was watching a psychology movie thing *just for you, annie, moive* and i figured out that there are some more things wrong with me. heh. not that i didn't know that already, but i found out the seperate names. well, guess that's it. so by popular demand *from the only person who comments on here anymore* i posted again. do you be happy now?????


Awaken and sing!
The last song we'll ever hear.
Strike the lightning in me
To touch the words that we fear.
Awaken and rejoice!
That the end is near.
Destroy all the life that we've known
All the life we've craved.
O, give me the power
And allow me to waste away.

Again and Again

I twist myself and hit the wall
Again and again.
I twist and cry as the knife goes in
Again and again.
I shiver and shake as the fear returns
Again and again.
I stop and wish I could tell someone
Again and again.

You don't know my name
You've got no one else to blame
Don't take it out on me
Look at your own shame.
We are nothing but twisted metal;
Melt me to perfection.
Wipe the tears from my eyes
Take the knife from my hand.
We should be able to live,
Not curse this barren land.
I don't want it to hurt anymore
And I wish for that again and again
But more than that
I wish for a friend.
Again and again
I wish...
Again and again.

Twist me, break me
Make me more than this.
I don't want to hate,
I don't want to hurt,
Can't let this fear consume me.
I want to lose the knife
And keep my life.
Shiver and shake
When I hear Your name.

Twist and cry
Throw the knife away.
Wipe my eyes,
Heal my cuts
And live another day.

Just to Update

here's some more links on the 'gay' camp.

another investigation.
Zach's blog in the news

To the Pain

read this and tell me that it isn't wrong. some people can just be so sick minded. and then to pass their evilness on their children...it's just so digusting. and i am a Christain, but this is blasphmey, pure and simple. what do these people hope to gain??? we need to do something about this. and it can't wait, it must be now!

go here for some good links and more information.

Purple Passion?

why is it that people never say they love something with a purple passion? what is it about the colour purple that inspires people to hate? (except for the fact that it's usually matched with pink and who doesn't hate pink...but i digress) why is it that it's only possible to hate something with a purple passion?? hmm, another mystery of life.

why, when someone gets into trouble, are they in a jam? or in a pickle? how, exactly, would you get someone into a pickle? or into a jar of jam for that matter? and wouldn't most people like being in jam cuz they'd get to eat it?

why is kitty litter called that? i mean, it's in a box, so it's not really litter. or a litter of kittens for that matter.

i promise, i'm not on acid. i haven't even licked any stamps!!!!! i promise!!!!!