Thursday, August 20, 2009

Annie and Hanna

I am so wrong
And not allowed to be mad
I am the one who should pay for what you never had
(Jealous much?)
You think you're such a righteous virgin
And she thinks she's such a righteous slut
But I am the one who doesn't deserve
Simply because I have what you never could
(Never had time for)
And you think you're such a righteous virgin
And she thinks she's such a righteous slut
And I don't deserve it because I'm not worth enough
Woe unto me for sleeping with the one man I ever loved
It makes me not good enough
Oh, righteous virgin, oh, righteous slut
What makes you so much better than me?
What makes either of you above me?
I, who accepts all the pain and swallows without a second thought,
Who has lost and loved and lost and lost and lost,
Who has come to be told by nearly everyone she's just not good enough...
I wanted trust and respect and love
And am told that I can't have those things
Because I'm just not good enough
Because I am a slut
Because, suddenly, it's wrong to be in love
I guess you're better than me, for loving and letting go
And never having to rebound with someone you know
Maybe you're the pure one, oh righteous virgin,
But I think you're far more filthy than I
And maybe you're the pure one, oh righteous slut,
But I think you're far more filthy than I
I'm being told to hold the pain in until I die
And now I'm told I'm a whore for not rolling over again
Oh virgin, oh slut, you were never friends

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Everything I Lost

I've not slept in nineteen hours. I keep getting this urge to slit my veins open and press bloody hand prints all over the walls...

The walls are too white

And the ceiling and the floor and everything else

I want colour!

WHERE THE FUCK ARE THE COLOURS?!

I just can't seem to care.

Fuck sleep

Fuck everything
 
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