Static ringing
Say
Bells bells bells
I hear voices in my head
The sun rising
Rising
I've got a rhythm to meet
It's coming
A long time
A LONG TIME
She said
I almost don't want to hold it together anymore
Just start screaming
Until heaven
WHISPERS AWAY
Static building into a sweet
Lullaby
To fall to sleep to
And inside
INSIDE SHE SAID
Is where I can't hold on anymore
I don't want to have to deal with this
Except
EXCEPTION
I have to
Or I lose something
PRECIOUS
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Sad Little Life
You've got the whole world,
Don't you,
In a pocket of your too-tight jeans.
One day you plucked it from space
And tucked it away,
Someplace where everyone would bend to you
With meekness on their face.
Such big blue eyes that you hide behind,
And I tell you now
They're full of pride,
Full of desperation, right?
To find someone who will love you
Regardless of yourself
In spite of yourself
Because of yourself.
And everyone you push away with the way you act
Is just another notch you'll remember
When you grow up
And look back, dreaming,
On something that could have been full,
But was empty.
You don't want pity or compassion
But you want us to respect you without emotion.
Vanity sealed upon your heart,
A desperation
A DESPERATION
Tearing the world apart.
You act like you've never had someone stand
Against your anger
Before your wrath,
And I'm here to tell you that I am
DIFFERENT
Because I won't let you make me crawl
Before someone who has the world enthralled.
Don't you,
In a pocket of your too-tight jeans.
One day you plucked it from space
And tucked it away,
Someplace where everyone would bend to you
With meekness on their face.
Such big blue eyes that you hide behind,
And I tell you now
They're full of pride,
Full of desperation, right?
To find someone who will love you
Regardless of yourself
In spite of yourself
Because of yourself.
And everyone you push away with the way you act
Is just another notch you'll remember
When you grow up
And look back, dreaming,
On something that could have been full,
But was empty.
You don't want pity or compassion
But you want us to respect you without emotion.
Vanity sealed upon your heart,
A desperation
A DESPERATION
Tearing the world apart.
You act like you've never had someone stand
Against your anger
Before your wrath,
And I'm here to tell you that I am
DIFFERENT
Because I won't let you make me crawl
Before someone who has the world enthralled.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Fourth Virtue
It's like saying the moon is purple,
A rich little lie
Whispered into the night.
Am I a hypocrite?
For wanting things to be alright,
For respecting life,
For protecting what's mine?
I depend on the safety
Of the societal norm
To keep me sheltered and
Keep me alone.
Why shouldn't we trust another's words?
If they say that they're good,
If they say that we should?
Society dictates we all have to lie
Just like the moon
Looking down from the sky.
And I guess when it comes to
Trusting someone new
I embrace the truth
That there is no truth
In someone who desperately wants
To know you.
Why shouldn't we trust another's words?
Because sometimes even if we could,
Even if everything seems as it should,
There's a feeling I get on the back of my
Tongue
And I've had it forever,
And I've had it so long,
That I trust what it says and I
Push them away,
Regardless of what pretty words they might say.
Because sometimes, as it turns out,
Society's not wrong
And sometimes, as it turns out,
The feeling's too strong.
I'm not giving in to a desperate plea
To stop defending myself
From people like me,
To just trust someone else
Without waiting it out,
Because sometimes people lie
And the moon is still white.
A rich little lie
Whispered into the night.
Am I a hypocrite?
For wanting things to be alright,
For respecting life,
For protecting what's mine?
I depend on the safety
Of the societal norm
To keep me sheltered and
Keep me alone.
Why shouldn't we trust another's words?
If they say that they're good,
If they say that we should?
Society dictates we all have to lie
Just like the moon
Looking down from the sky.
And I guess when it comes to
Trusting someone new
I embrace the truth
That there is no truth
In someone who desperately wants
To know you.
Why shouldn't we trust another's words?
Because sometimes even if we could,
Even if everything seems as it should,
There's a feeling I get on the back of my
Tongue
And I've had it forever,
And I've had it so long,
That I trust what it says and I
Push them away,
Regardless of what pretty words they might say.
Because sometimes, as it turns out,
Society's not wrong
And sometimes, as it turns out,
The feeling's too strong.
I'm not giving in to a desperate plea
To stop defending myself
From people like me,
To just trust someone else
Without waiting it out,
Because sometimes people lie
And the moon is still white.
Wednesday, June 08, 2011
Deprivation
Petals, she says with a smile~
I am just a figment in a world
Undivided;
Unequipped to contain what should be free.
Since I am what everyone could be
Except...
Something in me is broken and
Fixing it?
Would mean facing a blinding light
In a sterile room.
"Recently that has seemed like the sane option,"
Says Lithium sweetly,
"Wouldn't it be nice?"
It would be, I can't deny
Except...
Who would I be when I came out?
"Who are you now?"
I am a patient blasphemy
In a world undivided
To hold people like me.
Petals, she says~
I've got to hold it together
Except...
I never sleep
And rock bottom always feels like this.
I'M NOT OKAY
But I don't know how to fix it.
I can't just LET GO
Petals~
I CAN'T LET GO AFTER ALL THIS
BECAUSE PRESSING ONE CIRCLE INTO MY THROAT
(means she'll choke)
Is admitting I am not good enough
Strong enough
Smart enough
Stable enough
To keep it together for the rest of them
PETALS, SHE SAYS~
Except...
I'm broken and I can't afford to haul my carcass
To the shop
I am just a figment in a world
Undivided;
Unequipped to contain what should be free.
Since I am what everyone could be
Except...
Something in me is broken and
Fixing it?
Would mean facing a blinding light
In a sterile room.
"Recently that has seemed like the sane option,"
Says Lithium sweetly,
"Wouldn't it be nice?"
It would be, I can't deny
Except...
Who would I be when I came out?
"Who are you now?"
I am a patient blasphemy
In a world undivided
To hold people like me.
Petals, she says~
I've got to hold it together
Except...
I never sleep
And rock bottom always feels like this.
I'M NOT OKAY
But I don't know how to fix it.
I can't just LET GO
Petals~
I CAN'T LET GO AFTER ALL THIS
BECAUSE PRESSING ONE CIRCLE INTO MY THROAT
(means she'll choke)
Is admitting I am not good enough
Strong enough
Smart enough
Stable enough
To keep it together for the rest of them
PETALS, SHE SAYS~
Except...
I'm broken and I can't afford to haul my carcass
To the shop
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