Liquid Fluid Science Fish

Sometimes I lose my voice...

It's hard to regain something you've placed aside, taken for useless, discarded, ignored. It's hard to remember what fluid motion is when you've lived in an angular world for so long.



What was I saying again?

Sometimes I can't remember the way things should be. Almost like I lose my sanity. Briefly. However, it could be just that there's too much noise in my head...

(a - b)/(a + b) = tan [(A-B)/2] / tan [(A+B)/2]
cos(2x) = cos^{^2}(x) - sin^{^2}(x) = 2 cos^{^2}(x) - 1 = 1 - 2 sin^{^2}(x)
tanh(x) = sinh(x)/cosh(x) = ( e ^x - e ^-x )/( e ^x + e ^-x )
df / ds = df / dx * dx / Ds + df / dy * dy / Ds

What was I saying again?

It's the whispers, sometimes. I don't know...

Maybe it's just me. I can get so distracted. So lost, confused, horrified.

Remember...it's got to be perfect. Perfect or wrong. Why does it ever have to be wrong? Why can't it just be? Why do I have to explain who I am, when obviously, obviously, I'm nothing to consider? I have nothing to explain. I have nothing to lay out for you. For anyone.

Don't judge me

What was I saying again?

There are children giggling outside. Except it's one in the morning. Who do I hear? Those little voices in my head, don't you know, she's crazy, crazy. Those little lies, they were so beautiful, now I've lost them all. What were the Trinity's names?

Rita

Kaida

Tammy

The whore, the murderess, la llorona. The voices I had in me the whole time. How do I say goodbye to the three voices in my head? How do I just walk away?

Can I walk away?

What was I saying again?

Maybe I never lost my voice, maybe I just haven't let it out enough.

That's probably what it is

Since this is really long