In Circles

Did we all start as angels?
I remember the falling from heaven,
The landing;
Who are you?
They say that if you don't take the chance
It will never come by again
And I?
I believe it.
You still have such beautiful wings
Even here on earth.
I wish you could hear my song,
My singing,
The whispers just below the surface.
I have said I am an abomination
And you?
You have yet to see it.
How can a demon promise an angel light?
Deceitful harlot,
I say,
Deceitful witch.
I will make you see me for who I am
And then?
Every word we've said is subject to change.
I would never hold you to me,
I would never wrap you in chains.
I would never make you like me.
You are always free to fly away
On the wings of
An angel.

Never

You rolled me under the waves
And I,
The unbending,
Caved
Before something warm and
Safe.
My guilt is a knife wound,
An icicle overhang.
My weakness will cause pain
And anguish
And I will be alone again
Because I never showed you
How deep
And dark
(And broken)
My rabbit hole goes.
(I wonder how long it will take)
I'm afraid
And I'm sorry
And I'm selfish
Because I want to,
Just for a little while,
Be held by someone who doesn't look at
A monster,
A child,
A sinner,
(A shattered soul)
Just for as long as it takes
Let me not be alone.

Pendulum

Don't take it for granted,
She said.
The dust settled again.
I was waiting for the next step on a path
I had forgotten.
You know it won't stop,
She said.
I am standing below the conductor
Watching the dust flash by.
I have forgotten the desire,
The will,
The reason.
You never had it in the first place,
She said
As she walked away.