Agony of Waiting

I told you, once, forever ago, that I would go to your funeral. I'd lay one white rose on your grave, turn and walk away.

You're too young for red. Pink was never your colour. Too pure for purple, black, yellow, or orange. And blue...kiddo, you're beige eyes would never see that as beautiful. It's white, for all your lost innocence, and all that you had, but threw away.

One white rose...and every year I'll come back and lay one white rose on your grave, even when no one else remembers.

I've begged and pleaded, bargained, explained, asked, listened, talked, yelled...I can't take anymore. You didn't even last an hour after you promised...

I keep hoping and praying, I want you to pull through. Waiting on this side for what may never happen...

May the moon stop shining...

I dedicate this song to you...
And this to me...

In Dedication

To all the fire fighters anywhere in the world. May the moon stop shining...

Aodhan, my love, please, come back to me...always come back to me...

For Brittany

Victory inhibit
Let go of my hand
If you can't learn to fly
You can't learn to stand

If I am your hero
Dark angels are we
Listening to voices
Living through dreams

With sadness and mercy
The day must dawn
Creating a world
Where children aren't young

An echo, a shade
Glimmer from the past
This knowledge that comes
What we learn last

Though creatures all
We are a different strain
Similar and yet
Not quite the same

Something forbidden
In shades of grey
A mixture, a blend
Leading this way:

Step into the sun
Step into the night
Creature of darkness
Creature of light

Survivor's Song

The raging ones in silence sleep
Beneath the mind of all the numb
Into each house the darkness creeps
Bind together, make us one

And fire is the light of life
Desire old as blowing wind
Burns as sharp as jaded knives
Oh, tattoo on us our sin

Wretched survivors, like broken glass
Rise from the ashes to the sky
From the gates, allow us pass,
Allow our souls go by

One last time, in silence sleep
Touch hearts that shatter hard as bone
And in our rage, the darkness reap
That makes us stand alone




Credit must go to Cocaine Jesus and Aodhan for the inspiration ^_^

IN SILENCE SLEEP

Mark 4:39 KJV

And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm.

What to Say...

Once to the belly

Once to the heart

Quick one two, one two

Doubled over on the floor

Begging for less...

Hoping for more

-----

Banana coloured bruises

Lovely

Can't resist pressing them

To relive something of the pain

And pleasure...

Stop Breathing...

Didn't know i could hurt this much and still breathe...almost breathe...spent Thanksgiving with Aodhan...and now that we're apart again, it's like a part of me was ripped off...like i'm bleeding slowly on the inside...i know we'll be together again, i know we will...it just hurts so much...

No Regrets

*click me*

Lay bare my heart
Here I promise
With the thorn pulled from my side
Fingerprints of blood
To love and cherish
Before the rain comes
After the world ends
Forever and all eternity
Blackest void to brightest day
Spiral up
The one I love
Amor de mi alma
Truer feelings hath none
With all my heart
Body, mind, soul, spirit
Every word uttered
A devotion
To you, my love
Here I promise
Forever after
Lay bare my heart...

Slash Dot

We are your nightmares
To have and to hold
Lay waste your comfort...










What, were you expecting it to rhyme?

**************

"Immortality is not impossible, only unrealized."

-Sileny from "A Study in Philosophy"

***EDIT***

The summary of "Study" can be found here. ^_^ looking forward to finishing it.

( ' | , )

Darkness: the beast an eternity long with a million arms

Light: the saviour an eternity long with a million shields

Circle

Eyes of red, the daemon spoke with words reeking of sulphur and ash. Held her arms close, a fire surrounded her, tormenting her with his hell. Screaming, screaming to cut away the darkness, she shattered the dream, took in a deep breath. Night again. Unending night where the dreams took hold of her, took and tore and tortured. Faceless memories and premonitions. Unhinged, unforgiven, she stared to the sky. Moon and stars, out of her reach for eternity, velvet blue a soothing sight-for the undamned. She wiped her brow, lay down once again on the cool grass. A blanket of tears to cover her, a blanket of sorrow. The wind, crisp and fresh, teased her hair, toyed with her rags. Rising again, she stood and stared around. Perhaps moving on would ease the pain and dreams, erase the wretched ache in her bosom. Shivering, she walked to the west. An ocean passed by, suspended in a tube of hate. From the east, morning birds began their song, squeezing her chest tighter with each mournful greeting to the Master of Day. She stumbled and fell, her blood seeping into the earth. Barren. She shuddered, rose from the serpents of hungering death that quested her. A cave lay open, an offering of solace, relief, shelter. Quickly, as though a wisp of breath, she scrambled into the embracing, enfolding maw. Cool air, a river of hopelessness, ensnared her, encircled, devoured. She stiffled her fears, lay down to rest. Humming, humming to the thoughts in her head, cradling the last bit of light fading in her palms, she shut her eyes. The light faded. The birds became once more silent statues. In her mind it opened. The room unfolded before her. Rising up, he came, reaching, snarling. Eyes of red, the daemon spoke with words reeking of sulphur and ash...

Birthday Wishes

One more year gone by
Losing friends
Gaining time
Finding something I hope makes you happy
And taking the scenic route through the woods
Celebrate the turning of the moon
The constant sun
The stars in the heavens
Each has their day
Today is yours

"Us two lonely stars" <3

I love you with everything I have to give. Happy Birthday, Aodhan

(---)

To the sky
They raise their hands and eyes
Bathing in the silver glow
Of the Hunter's Moon


A luminous master

.:*:.

They held the night in their arms
Embracing all its hidden charms
Seeking solace

\^/

She stood in front of the mirror
Smoothing her dress of black and white
And silver guilt

(\*/)

We held heaven for a moment
In a spider's web

Echoes of an Angel...

Dreamy eyes
Here we go a-haunting
To steal back our youth
Little bits of daylight
Reflecting on a tarnished dream
Bring the polishing cloth!
Wipe the dirt from the windows
Oh, agony of betrayal
Redefining-
What shall we become?
We are the echo
The pull of midnight
The blade that you still covet


Think what you will...

/^\

In silence surround us,
Mother of a shadow, and whisper
Tilted vengance

Watch what happens when the world ends

One Way You Could Hurt Me

Wake up from drifting into the nightmare of life. Sit straight up, it's an image. The pleasant dream people are the monsters. The happy faces, the happy lies. All warped and twisted. Take stock of the situation. I have my words, I have a reason now to live, I have this new found light... the daemon creatures laugh. Tell me...tell me what have I to fear... besides the taste of blood.

I can't understand this. I can't deal with this. I can't. WHY DON'T YOU SEE IT.

Because...she doesn't want to. She doesn't care

Always knew...loyalty will be the death of me


but there is one who is there

Oooo, Swiffy!!

i finally got around to changing my colours!!! what do you guys think??


Introductions over
Clasp your locket, little girl
Here is your master
He owns your world

Taste of the darkness
Repent no more
Don't hold your anger in
That's what the whips are for

Desire and destiny
Reach out your hand
Soon you'll wake up
Look back and understand

Roses are red
Blood is too
One day you'll meet someone
Just like you

Recorded

-a taste in my mouth-
Rewind
-a taste-
Rewind
-who smiles on-
Rewind
-in the darkness-
Rewind
-last chance-
Rewind
Here we stand:
Hold on
To the moon when it's gone
In silent victory we shake
Tumble down
Little hills and valleys
Worthy words and voices
Service
Take this last chance
Hold on
When in the darkness we fall
Opression
One who smiles on us all
Leaves a taste in my mouth
Leaves a taste in my mouth
Hold on
The last line is yet to be written-

My Aodhan...

We stretched out our hands
Missed in the dark
I guess we were both too frightened
Just two lonely stars
But in the end
Our dreams came true
And now here we are:
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you

Somehow we both missed the signs
But baby, now it's fine
We both took the chance
This is something that will last

I know we're far apart
But you're always in my heart
Every day I think of you
All that we've been through
And now I see you're the one
The one I've been waiting for so long...

We stretched out our hands
Missed in the dark
We were both too frightened,
Us two lonely stars.
But now in the end
Our dreams have come true
And I don't want to be with anyone
But you

Somehow we both missed the signs
But baby, now it's fine
We both took the chance
This is something that will last

Screaming into the Blackness

i want to thank everyone who's helped me on here. you're all great. (i'd make a list, but i'd probably forget someone and then they'd be mad at me...) yeah, i'm feeling a lot better now. everything's changed. everything...

last night i stood alone in my aunt's kitchen. i just wanted to get a towel...she had just cleaned the kitchen, taken out all the trash, everything was beautiful...i looked in the garbage can for some reason, i don't know why...there was a razour blade...not mine, no, someone took all my stuff...but there it was. there was the way out. i never knew they were so light...i picked it up, held it...my hands were shaking so bad, so bad...there was dried blood, it was so beautiful...but i dropped it back into the can. i dropped it and turned away.

i was afraid this morning
i'd wake up and you'd be gone
a dream i had
one that i wanted so bad
i woke to the sound of fighting
and remembered you
everything we've been through
i woke and shuddered
would you still love me?
would the night have changed it all?
but you said good morning
and threw my fears away

^fucking cheesy, i know.

Mercy

BLINDED
WE ARE THE


SAVIOURS?



TASTE IN RAGE

music as a lullaby
soothing us to sleep
tears that we were forced to cry


FEAR US
DESTROY US



AS IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW

TURN TOWARDS THE DARK

Breathing

what is this all adding up to...i take a look at myself, as objectively as i can, and all i see is another little kid...a little kid who fucked her life up so bad. she can't write, she can't even talk in coherent sentences anymore. she's bipolar again. what a stupid, pathetic little kid. i can see how she got herself kicked out. she's one of those kids who you just pity and walk away because there's nothing you can do. she won't let you.

i've called myself faithless...i've called myself beholden...i've called myself so many things that were not quite true then, but too true now. i've lost my faith, i've given my blood...and for those of you not familiar with blood rituals, that probably sounds really melodramatic. but at this point i don't care.

something funny (or not, whichever), if you stay around me for about an hour, you'll see me swing from manic to depressive. it's entertaining.

the colour black has never been so intense before...this whole relapse thing, it's changed colours... the lows are so low, i can feel the coldness...but the highs, the actual highs, they brighten all the colours, intensify everything. sound, smell, taste, tone...i don't know about touch, i wasn't really paying much attention...it's like...i don't know

i was going to end this with something either poetic or happier. but you know what? fuck it. imagine your own happy ending

LEAVE ME COMMENTS, DAMMIT!

Without You

so...i've been kicked out of my house since the last time i posted...i'm staying at my cousin's for a bit, then moving to her mom's (yes, i'm paying rent) just thought i'd add all that useless information to this random thing...

So we'll strive to die
An unassissted suicide
Will we have visions?
Will we speak lies?

Glory to the dead of fire
And when we quest
We'll drink of power
And when we cry
We'll burn the ground
Glory to the dead of sound

Gift of Rest

Now we lay us down to death
We pray all fear has from us fled
Oh, let us die before we wake
And stop our hearts before they break...

With Realization...

...But rage is a warm comfort
Tinted comforting red
And the dark eyed boy
Is not so easily put off
I offer my blood
But that is not enough
Faceless desire
Why can't we love?


multiple personality
n : a relatively rare dissociative disorder in which the usual integrity of the personality breaks down and two or more independent personalities emerge dictionary.com


I don't think I'm supposed to know about him
And certainly not anyone else.


Talk to me
Tell me it's a dream
Like my-
Broken wings?

Anarchy

Who died and left them in charge?

Hayz- You're wrong, I would kill you
Mabie- You have no idea how deep my rage goes

What do you expect from me
Helpless fury and despicable actions...

Straighten the line
They have no idea
You're all wrong
I WOULD KILL YOU

Heretic

why am i the damned?
rejection
the demons laugh with you
RED LINES
rejection
flip the switch
cut the laughter out
fuck this


it comes to one decision, better left unsaid

Hell

i keep having these visions of stabbing a knife in my arm...what's wrong with me when this is all i think of...what's wrong with me when the scars start to spread across my body. and there's no stopping it. no stopping anything anymore. why don't i just admit i have nothing left and let go? why don't i just let go...into these visions.

True Dark

Stay your soul
Bitterly, we move together
With a call of fury
Bring down the fire
Stay your outrage
We move in legion
Speak no words
Death for your treason
Hide behind your doors
Shutter the windows and cry
With your pain we will gain
Another sable night
Cover your eyes
Cover your eyes!
Stay your soul
Legion of darkness and light
Stay your outrage
Embrace the quiet

Animal Sounds

maintain your pathetic excuses
beyond the light of the fire
a terror so deep it will infiltrate
even so far as the earth

take my hand and devour
stand ready to end it all
with a meager portion of terror
we will destroy them all

contain your simple positions
a word of truth on your lips
i cannot remember to walk with you
if you turn from me now

take my hand and devour
stand ready to end it all
with a meager porion of terror
we will destroy them all

subtle ways to rip us assunder
i demand your attention now
take this my failure and run with me
with hands outstretched to kill

take my hand and devour
stand ready to end it all
with a meager portion of terror
we will destroy them all

Why Did I Bother?

so i went to my school's prom. (i was coereced. a senior friend said she'd cry if i didn't go and that it was her last year here and she really wanted me there, and i can't stand it when people cry...) i've determined that all females that went are stained glass windows, pretty but pointless. as for me, i wasn't gothic in the subculture way, but in the era, yeah i got that down pretty good. all black and dark grey and scary looking...like i could eat your soul...mmm, like cotton candy...

Nothing so real as surreal
Maybe tinted by exhaustion
Maybe by the headache
Concussion bass
Should have been this way
Should have been butterflies
And eternal dancing
And eternal butterflies
Flowing gowns
And butterflies...

Twinkle, twinkle little star
Kill us all, kill us hard
Make them learn
Make them burn
DESTROY US ALL
THEY WILL FALL

Beholden

Rip my veins
And trembling I will fall
You hold the blade to my wrist
Seal my fate with a heartfelt
Kiss.
One final death to die
And trembling I will go
You hold the blade to my mind
Seal my fate with a heartfelt
Lie.
Spill my blood
And tremnling I will stop
You hold the blade to my silence
Seal my fate with a heartfelt
Violence.
Rip my veins
And trembling I will fall
You hold the blade to my wrist
Seal my fate with a heartfelt
Kiss.

Stand Down

as over the edge we stand
as over the lies we craft
with a hand of violence and murder
take me now in this hour
take me back to the before
candle flames and wind in the air
promises, all empty promises
like the shattered mirror of my dreams
or are they mine at all
i lived in the other world and over the edge
we stand looking down
we stand with the wings torn from our backs
who are you to condemn the damned?
we are, we are
as over the edge we stand
falling past your steady gaze
i held in my heart your last breath

Un-haven

Maybe we've got a place.
With the element of desire
There is nothing barred,
Nothing whole.
(To help the path end)
Maybe with this rejection,
Determined resignation,
Maybe with a small smile
Can we change what comes
Pass on the responsibility
Pass on with the secret:
Maybe we've got a place...


With realisation comes the responsibility of repression

Stand

strangleation and a million tiny voices with sharp swords in their back pockets. empty cartons of milk scattered in the hall with the rest of the white trash. fancy magpies, if only i had a shotgun. if only i had a sense of reality so i could destroy the sickness that lives in me and rise against the night, back to the way things were, even if death should follow. strafe, spin, twist, inhale the powder. i can write it but when i speak it's like the world ends. over and over and over and over and over...

riveting. a baby cries in the night. and i am alone to listen. what do you want from me? what do you want me to do? play the game and win, stupid. that's all.

Spite

don't you dare tell me who i am. what you see is what you want. beside the darkness, beside of you. open your eyes, fool. look into the sun. take me for who i am not, not for who i am. endless debate and countless memories. you always remember what makes you look good, not what is good. debate me about the truth. but they know. all of them. trust me, it'll be the last thing you do.

Again We Remember

*sigh*

once again we remember.

I'll leave a rose on your pillow
So you'll know i was here,
Complete with a drop of blood
To stain the white cotton fabric.
Soon, that one drop,
That never dies and never darkens,
Will soak through all the sheets and blankets,
Turning each white cloth to red,
The colour of love and rage.
I love you.

News

Why do the rains bring death?
So many homeless survivors drowning in despair
And misery.
Ah, we beg for syrings to ease out pain
The death toll rises and we see
That when we are alone
We have changed what we believed.
Trembling aftershocks, they took our hope
What have we left now on this day
Oh, mortal confusion, take it all away.

REPRESSED RAGE

Making A List...

name as many forms of abuse as you can. i just want to see something, so please, humour me.

False Hope

it's an interesting feeling, being on the verge of tears...i haven't cried in so long, i don't really remember...all i could think of was how good it would feel to cry again...what happend was a really stupid thing that just...shouldn't have made me like this...i was s'posed to go somewhere with some friends, and it was going good until i had a time that i had to meet them...then my mother (cuz i don't have my lisence yet) took me to a store and instead of just staying there about 20 mins like we were s'posed to, she made me stay 2 hours. so i'm there glaring at the clock and she's telling me to relax and not be so stressed. so we get in the car and go to pick up my check, which we were going to cash and then head out of town, well, i get my check and then my stepdad starts complaing that he's hungry (he was in the car with us) so we stop by burger king *barf* and get some food and sit in the lot and eat. then we go to cash the fucking check...then we just have to go home cuz my stepdad wanted to and unload the stuff we bought and i get a call saying that my friends are leaving and they have to go home (around this time was an hour fifteen after i was s'posed to meet them). so yeah...i pretty much almost break down on the phone...(for those wondering why this would bother me so much, i never do anything with any of my friends...cuz friends are bad dontcha know, well, that's what my stepdad says and he told me that i'm not good enough for them and all this shit) so yeah, i bought a benchpress bar and a curl bar and i'm assembling them in my room cuz i had to do something or explode and he comes in while my mom is helping me put the screw in and he says "don't throw this against the wall cuz it'll knock a hole in it." no shit, sherlock. gosh damn, i'm not a fucking retard. i'm in weight training for fuck's sake, i fucking know what one of those would do to my wall. then he goes all serious and he's like "but i bet you already knew that, right?" and i nodded, cuz yeah, i knew that so he started in on me about my bad attitude and actually wanting to do something with my friends that, ohmygosh, would require someone to drive me somewhere. IF HE'D LET ME GET MY FUCKING LISENCE I WOULDN'T HAVE TO ASK TO BE CARTED AROUND. fuck this. i think i'll go do something...deconstructive

but what I meant was that he didn't put on his post "I NEED HELP. CONSOLE ME WITH MEANINGLESS BABBLE"
-ShadeofDeath

Struck With Nothing

meh, nothing to say, or at least, nothing that doesn't sound so cliche i'd have to shoot myself. actually, i thought about posting some poems i wrote to Deirdre (*ahem* i rename my friends so that i can write about them...though i'm pretty certain that i can't call this person a friend). but, i read over them, and one was sooo dark...in relation to me...the other was so...um...dark and violent (a collab between me and an awesome guy in my CW class, not that i talk to many people in there, but he added this brilliant ending to it and it really seems to work out well) in relation to her. meh, i'll end up posting them if she ever makes me that mad again...or if she vaguely annoys me, it doesn't take much to make me homicidal, what takes a lot is taking me past homicide into the "evil sadist" mode. then i have these random daydreams of torturing people...which i nearly did once so don't make me that mad...*innocent smile*

go watch these:
Element Trailor, good flash graphics, lovely stroy line
Merry Melony episode 1, omgosh, this is amazing
The Ultimate Showdown, hey, it's funny! we need to laugh sometimes!

i'd put the suicide one on here, but, uh, yeah...it's not conducive to living

Running Embrace

Fate of the eyes
We're going to shut you up
Tonight
We're going to run until we die
And we're not gonna stop
Not 'til we fucking know how far
This goes
We'll meet our monsters in the dark
And we're not gonna let them go
We'll embrace our fears tonight
We'll embrace our fears tonight
Somehow we'll bring them home
Take our fucking soul out
And we're not gonna let them go
We'll meet our monsters in the dark
And we're gonna take them home
We'll embrace our fears tonight
We'll embrace our fears tonight

And Now For Something Completely Different

omgosh! i hate some of the people who come into Krispy Kreme!!!!!! *rages, bangs head into wall* ARRRRRGGGGGGH. *bursts into tears and gets machete* haHA! now they will not be so stupid!!

Stupid Person 1: I see the hot light's on. Oh, do you have hot donuts right now?
Me: NO! TODAY ONLY! HOTLIGHT ON AND NO DONUTS! BUT WHEN WE START MAKING THEM, WE'LL TURN THE LIGHT OFF!!!

Me: Would you like some napkins?
Stupid Person 2: Sure, if you have any
Me: ACTUALLY, I GAVE THE LAST TO THAT GUY OVER THERE! I WAS JUST ASKING TO TAUNT YOU

Stupid Person 3: Why don't you have a half dozen deal?!
Me: CUZ THEN NO ONE WOULD BUY A FULL DOZEN, BIOTCH

Stupid Person 4 (while pointing to sign with the donut of the month flavour on it): Is your donut of the month still pumpkin spice cake?
Me: NO, WE JUST HAVE THAT SIGN UP CUZ WE DIDN'T WANT TO TAKE IT DOWN

*bangs head into keyboard* why why why why why are people so freaking stupid?!?!? i swear, the next stupid person will have me lunging out the window in drive thru at their throat!!!!! *screams* and i have to be nice to the morons or i'll lose the job! if i ever quit, i'll just say some of this stuff to people. i've had ample opportunity...*dark gaze* i'm serious...*runs repeatedly into wall* and of course, this isn't all that they ask/say. oh, there's more, much more! and some of the orders!!!!

Stupid Health Freak: Can I have a large hot chocolate...with skim milk?
Me:...*blank gaze* ...WHAT THE HELL IS THE POINT??? WE PUT 10 SQUIRTS OF CHOCOLATE INTO THOSE THINGS! IT'S NOT LIKE YOU'RE MAKING IT ANY HEALTHIER

Random Stupid Person: I want something to keep me awake...how about a medium decaf coffee?
Me: ...*wtf?*

yeah, that one got me...i didn't even think anything sarcastic about them...just kinda...yeah, decaf is really gonna do ya a good one there. *nods wisely* meh, and then tonight, the guy didn't say he wanted the mocha decaf, so right when i was about to go supervise the making of said mocha, he grabs the drive thru window and nearly pulls himself in the window and says "i did say that's s'posed to be decaf, right??" and i'm like "what...? um, no, no you didn't..." and i run down to the steamer and try to catch the chick before she adds the chocolate...thankfully we could use the espresso in something else...dumbarse hillbillies...oh! and i found out KK is the hangout of all emo kids in this county! they come in at least 20 times a night for a free donut, reaking of pot and ciggies and who knows what else, voraciously devour the donuts, and leave...i've never seen so many emo kids all together...not even at school and that's saying something. well...on the plus side of all this, i get to make fun of everyone stupid (and all emos) with the other people working...and i ordered a black shirt online, so i don't have to wear *shudders* white anymore.

well, i think i'm done ranting...i'll leave you with this thought...All it takes is two steps forward and one step back

Fact #139

Every emo kid everywhere owns at least one thing with a checkerboard pattern, usually a pair of shoes.


so, we stated school again today. which sucked. like hell. not just cuz i got homework (we just got back!! please!!) but cuz i just couldn't...i mean, well, i should have cut it out last night. and i didn't. i said i wouldn't and i didn't. so i kept one promise out of thousands. and today i paid the price for it. i couldn't look anyone in the eyes, i couldn't even speak to anyone, i always looked at the floor (nice tyle pattern, lovely fake rock thingies, and they sparkle in the sun!)

i hope it fucking explodes and takes your head off, i hope it takes me over and kills you. let me be! i don't need you anymore. let me be. let me be! fucking leave me alone to this misery! without you i could get better! without you i could live again! FUCK OFF

I Think, They Speak

i know it's not worth this feeling
failure, you're such a failure
but i can't help letting it get to me
becuase you'll never be like them
how it burns me through
yes, let it in
just to know that i'm like this
you'll always be this way
and you're like that
don't look into the light
if you even knew how sick i am
and we have you in chains
of all this death and darkness
the only thing you are worth
maybe you'd listen more
you fool yourself
maybe you'd try to talk to me
they all hate you
more than you do right now
they do it from pity
or maybe you'd just leave me be
of course they would, my child
for what has more pull
say what you are
than a creature of the shadows...

Another Year

well, it's 2006. a whole new year, 365 days that we haven't traveled yet...and when it's all said and done, it's just another year to be lonely, another year to be in pain each and every day. a whole year that we have to get through so that we can get through another year and another and another until we're old. and then we just...kind of die. and no one notices. we're just another number on another graph somewhere and then our 'personal' number is written down as deceased and that's that. who cares to remember the dead...the dead walk the halls and no one is there to comfort them...people like me, it's our job to remember them, all of them...but who wants to admit to that. and the sun is shining and i don't really think that it's worth it anymore, but here's the new year, and we have to stay around just long enough to prove that this year will suck as much as the last. or maybe things will change and we'll find a way...because there's always a way, we just don't always see it.

May we all see where to go, Happy New Year

New Year's Rememberance