i want to thank everyone who's helped me on here. you're all great. (i'd make a list, but i'd probably forget someone and then they'd be mad at me...) yeah, i'm feeling a lot better now. everything's changed. everything...
last night i stood alone in my aunt's kitchen. i just wanted to get a towel...she had just cleaned the kitchen, taken out all the trash, everything was beautiful...i looked in the garbage can for some reason, i don't know why...there was a razour blade...not mine, no, someone took all my stuff...but there it was. there was the way out. i never knew they were so light...i picked it up, held it...my hands were shaking so bad, so bad...there was dried blood, it was so beautiful...but i dropped it back into the can. i dropped it and turned away.
i was afraid this morning
i'd wake up and you'd be gone
a dream i had
one that i wanted so bad
i woke to the sound of fighting
and remembered you
everything we've been through
i woke and shuddered
would you still love me?
would the night have changed it all?
but you said good morning
and threw my fears away
^fucking cheesy, i know.
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
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hey, you noted me on open diary .s.c.a.r.(r).e.d. and you commented on my writing, i just wanted to say thanku. hope your ok, take care, xXx
*SCREAM* YAY NEEEEEEEEEEEEY! *CHEERS* GO YOU!! I'M SO PROUD!! YAAAAAAAAAYYYY!!
Good for you! See, I told you there was hope for you yet. That's really wonderful. And for what it's worth, I'm very proud of you.
How long has it been since you cut yourself?
Hoping you happiness.
cheesy my arse. good stuff. glad to see that you are fighting back.
fuck 'em all is my motto!!
ps. if you want to see what this aging reptile looks like then go to spilled to bloodlessness (a team blog). i'm on there.
Baby, I'm so proud of you. I knew you had that strength within you. And now you've brought it out. *hugs tight* I love you.
Aodhan
ahhhhhhhhhhh... well you know i dont now about the cutting and all that goes in to it...but it seems like you are better... and i wish i was there for you when you was in some kinda of problem...but look with in yourself ... you have the strength to do what ever you want... choices... life is always wonderful... takecare... gosh.. i am about to tear up... sniff.. if only i had a krispy kreme donut... i would feel better
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