Rationality of Pain

I'm sitting here crying, not just for me
Should never have admitted that I'm weak
Humanity is something I should shun
I've let my heart come undone...

I can't begin to express the sorrow in my heart
I know I've hurt you and it tears me apart.
Believe me, I never meant for it to happen
I admitted something that shouldn't have been...

I guess I get what I deserve in the end
And maybe, after it all, we'll still be friends,
I keep wanting to apologize, to make you understand,
But I don't have control over my shaking hands

I know how I made you feel
I know that you're the one who's real
And here I am, too frightened to make a sound
Because I'm curled in a corner on the ground