Worship

I would fall before you,
My heart,

I would bow down and whisper your name

Between shaking hands
And without hope.

I have walked a windswept forest at night searching for something that I'm uncertain exists in the first place. No body wants me and no body knows I'm gone and no body would miss me if I never came back. If I fell into the darkness and reached for the bottom of the pit would I find what I've always wanted? I don't want to be lost.

My heart,
You are the only one I have ever worshiped.

I could never give you what you deserve

And I weep for that,
And I weep for my defiance.

And I wish I could forget.