Let Alone

i kinda just liked the pic. may take a minute to load (or maybe it won't load at all, just let me know if the crazy word it says is bad. it's something like eien? or whatever). reminds me of how my day went. ya know, everyone shut up and leave me alone while i listen to my depressing music that you have never heard of. (actually, some people probably have and then left them alone, does Skillet ring a bell?) anyways, i've kinda been thinking about suicide since that girl died. had a run-in with one of her friends. guess someone who didn't like me much said that i said something terrible (how could i? i was crying too much to say anything really painful. although i did tell one of my friends what i heard...keep asking myself if i really DID say something bad, but i dunno anymore) the chick really wasn't angry, just hurt and scared. and i was fine with her taking her frustration out on me. kinda used to it. denied saying anything bad of course. i won't take the blame for something i didn't do. wrote a poem about it. guess that's how i keep myself from self destructing. not that it works all the time. but hey, whatever. so uh, here it is...

Maybe we're all just born to die
And maybe we'll make no difference at all
But maybe that doesn't matter
Maybe nothing matters
So what if a world ends?
Who's going to notice?
Maybe no one
Maybe someone
Maybe they'll live in our memories
Maybe not
But why should we live
If we leave nothing behind?

I wish you could have found something better
And I wish you could have gone on
And yeah, life sucks
We got your point
Most of us understand
We just wish it hadn't ended this way
And I didn't even know you
But somehow that doesn't matter
I still wish you had gotten
Something better.

What type of teenager are you?