Deeper

watch my world collapse, and there i go again, deeper than i thought possible. not that it matters. not like life is worth living anyway. not that anyone will notice when i'm gone. and it's not like i wasn't warned enough. guess it doesn't make a difference anymore. what does it matter? i'm so stupid. ripping my life apart one piece at a time and then burning it so i can never go back. can't say that life would accept me now. hurts too much to think that. i want help. i need it and i want out of this. this eternal spiral into the depths of darkness. just stop. i don't care if this doesn't make any sense at all. i don't care anymore. nothing matters. i want out! and there's no one there to help me. i'm so fake. and behind it all i'm dying. take my last breath. there's nothing left for me here. but i'm scared to die sometimes. and i want to live. but what is there left to me? i just want help. i don't want to continue on like this. empty existence. but what can i do? there's no one here to help me. no one...