Voiceless RAGE

If I have the courtesy to take all your pain
Shouldn't you at least give me your time?
If I have the courtesy to take all the blame
Shouldn't you at least FUCKING STAY AWAKE
I'll take it all away
I'll take it all away
Until my very self fades
Ethereal angel of mercy
And death
I'm the heartless beating in your chest
The rope that shreds
The hope that dies
The shadow of darkness in your eyes
I'll take it all away
I'll take it all away
And you know, you know, you know
That underneath this faded mask
I hold in rage from the past
Provoke me
Choke me
And I...
I'll take your pain
My courtesy runs short
My loyalty runs short
My honour fades to dust
And this sharpened blade begins to rust
All I ever asked was courtesy and respect
But YOU HAVEN'T FUCKING LEARNED THAT YET

Pathetic Empathic

Ransom your soul
Your gift and your curse
Violent eyes
Violent lies
Hang your head in shame or pain
Regardless
Those haunting eyes
Staticy, panicky voices in your head
(Make you wish
Make you wish you were dead)
A little more mercy
Oh, wandering voices
Tempest
Storm of eyes and blood
Raining down
Loser, lost in static
Pay attention!
There are voices afoot
Stalking
Gaurd your heart:

Here comes the last line

Was it lost again?
Do you...
Do you promise?
(Cross my heart
Hope to live forever)
Your little liar
Your little whore
Babylon could learn at my feet
Listen
Forgiven?
Don't forgive the damned
They only rise up again
Rebellion
Whispering wind
(Help me)
I'm the darkness in your soul
I'm the burnt edge on your toast
The bitter tang in your tea
The cloud above the sea...
Faithless?
I believe
I believe dancing is graceless
And when I fall
When the rocks on my back
Finally pull me down again
I'll prove you all wrong
Raging
Where is the window?
Violent eyes, lies, cries, nights
Wrong choice
Wicked children
When I grow up
I'll rule the world by fire
Because I will not be ignored
And ashes teach so many more lessons
Than bitter suffering

Disengage

Goodbye to yesterday
Goodbye to memories
Goodbye to the last chance
I had

So thoughtlessly run away
Tomorrow made me change
It was choices left to me
And all that I could see
The way you used me
(No more abuse)
The way I caved in
(No more excuse)
Only one thing left
One thing left to say

Goodbye to yesterday
Goodbye to memories
Goodbye to the last chance
I had

To leave this place
The pain and the disgrace
I just had to walk away
From all our yesterdays
And now I can't regret
(Some things were not so bad)
Cuz it's not finished yet
(I can't regret, regret)
My last words to you

Goodbye to yesterday
Goodbye to memories
Goodbye to the last chance
I had

To run away
(Make sure my soul was saved)
I had to turn my face
(And leave without disgrace)
I had to give it up
(Turn and run)
Before I fell
(Back to the dark)
Back into the nightmare
(No more abuse)
This time I WIL NOT LOSE

Goodbye to yesterday
Goodbye to the memories
Goodbye to the last chance

Sunday Sermon

Lead us not into temptation
But deliver us from Hell
Rest our souls in darkness
Darkness?
Silent witness, let us pray
Bow, bow, bow your head
Before the guillotine
And pray, and pray
Lead us not into temptation
But deliver us
Deliver us
Deliver us from those watchful eyes
Oh, deliver us
Pray, for tomorrow dawns dead
And we, the silent, arise
Is this a dream?
To interpret as we might?
Merely the sickened delusions of society
So pray, pray, pray
Like never before
And hope to heaven that tomorrow
Will dawn breathing
And whispering
Whispering:
Lead us not into temptation
But deliver us...

It Kills Us...

K-k-kill the children
Leave them out in the snow
Lock the doors
Bar the windows
Watch them all go

Sh-sh-shiver the shutters
The wind doth shake
The house
The rafters
Watch what they take

La-la-lie to the Master
When he asks what you've done
They're dead
They're gone
They'll come back with the sun...

Stop

Look

Faithless?
Heretic
Solemn?
Heretic
Driven?
Heretic
Souless?
Heretic
BLOODY HERETIC!

Wait, just kidding

Last Memorial

She was in me
Holding me back
Pushing me down
Til I saw black
I was calling and stalling
Weeping into the wind
Crying for help
To get her out again
She was in me
Wanting my life
Screaming not to remember
Dying to live

RIP Jennifer Stowers
please...

Interrogation of the Fish's Interlude in G Major

Riptide, here is the sun...
Liquid nitrogen to drink us to sleep
Oh, drink us to sleep
Fall to the waves and the deep...deep...deep...
Repeat
Refrain
Refrain from the voices in your brain
Brain or mind
Rather, is this the time?
Time to live
Or time to die
Die or dye or die this suicide
In shades
Shades of deadly, deadly might
Might, bright, light, sight...
Night
Here, good knight, and take your sword
From the stone you stand
To hold this hand
Hand to me
To me
Me
I
Will
Dream
Until the moon stops shining...

Hearfelt Suicide

Listen...no, don't listen. I have nothing worth saying. Mock me as you wish. All I have is this lingering darkness. Linger...bad taste in my mouth...like blood and yet...there's something else.

Star light
Star bright
Give me the chance
To speak tonight

Wish I may
Wish I might
Take this darkness
And die inside

What do I have to offer you? I have my past, I lay that at your feet, to trample, to kick, to kill. I'll always play the fool, here with this loyalty I offer. Always play the one to fall, take the blame, I'll take your darkness away with my heart. It's what I do. Don't stop me from living this life in death. In death...in death...in death...

Slasher
Gasher
Bleeding red to black to red
Purest
Surest
One more and you're dead

Echo, me, I stand, I fall, I stand, I fall. I fall to earth and lose my wings. Was I an angel? Of darkness....of darkness....of light of hope and pain and darkness. I fall to earth and lose my wings. I fall to earth and lose my wings. I fall to earth and hope to start anew

Death defying
Strive to die an unassisted suicide
Last chance
Last chance to fall to hell
Hold my hand
And hold my hand
And hold my head to yours
And give me one kiss
Before the dark creeps in

May the Moon Stop Shining...

Return Return Return

*click*

Just got back from the Fiesta Bowl this morning. Slept all day (gosh damn 26 hours on a bus). Long story short, I didn't have to kill anyone. Just maim (I kid, I kid). It was fun. We placed 11th out of 12. Ok, so we sucked it up, but we were the only invited band from the state. Gosh. Got to see the Grand Canyon and all that jazz.

With all the voices raging, past the door, come, follow us down

Spent all our waking moments doing stuff. Swimming, practice, party, seminar, going some random place to eat. Got to see the Organ Stop. Simply amazing. Although now I'm completely sick of everyone in band. Wish they'd all just die...should say jk here, but I'm not really.

Take us at our word, follow, with all the voices in your ear, straight to the darkness

I played with something that I should never have touched...when will I learn to leave the spirit world to its own devices...here I am, shaken, unsettled, unclean, trying to convince myself that I wasn't...wasn't...involved...

She said 'Don't make me remember' but what am I if not an echo chamber?

She looked me over, ran her/my hands across her/my legs, answered my phone. She said it wasn't a bad body. She said she could accept this. I sat to the side, frozen, stuck, wanting to be myself and yet stopped. She typed back a message. She saw his picture. She smiled.

I was crying inside, following the trail of oblivion, calling and stalling and weeping into the wind

She wanted to meet him. She looked through my memories. I'm unclean...I'm dirty...cast her away, I have the control...easier said than done. I cried inside...and choked. Who am I? I could remember...nothing that I had ever been through before.

"Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep"

The fire raged and the bodies...the screams...it hurt, I was dying...no...she was...what was I doing? I had no control...

It was complications from Zoloft. Suicide. She was tempted by the daemons in the bathroom. She took too many pills. Settled down with her wine. When she realized what was happening, she was angry. The daemon looked on. She died from an assisted suicide. Case Closed.

So why do I still feel unclean...?

Agony of Waiting

I told you, once, forever ago, that I would go to your funeral. I'd lay one white rose on your grave, turn and walk away.

You're too young for red. Pink was never your colour. Too pure for purple, black, yellow, or orange. And blue...kiddo, you're beige eyes would never see that as beautiful. It's white, for all your lost innocence, and all that you had, but threw away.

One white rose...and every year I'll come back and lay one white rose on your grave, even when no one else remembers.

I've begged and pleaded, bargained, explained, asked, listened, talked, yelled...I can't take anymore. You didn't even last an hour after you promised...

I keep hoping and praying, I want you to pull through. Waiting on this side for what may never happen...

May the moon stop shining...

I dedicate this song to you...
And this to me...

In Dedication

To all the fire fighters anywhere in the world. May the moon stop shining...

Aodhan, my love, please, come back to me...always come back to me...

For Brittany

Victory inhibit
Let go of my hand
If you can't learn to fly
You can't learn to stand

If I am your hero
Dark angels are we
Listening to voices
Living through dreams

With sadness and mercy
The day must dawn
Creating a world
Where children aren't young

An echo, a shade
Glimmer from the past
This knowledge that comes
What we learn last

Though creatures all
We are a different strain
Similar and yet
Not quite the same

Something forbidden
In shades of grey
A mixture, a blend
Leading this way:

Step into the sun
Step into the night
Creature of darkness
Creature of light

Survivor's Song

The raging ones in silence sleep
Beneath the mind of all the numb
Into each house the darkness creeps
Bind together, make us one

And fire is the light of life
Desire old as blowing wind
Burns as sharp as jaded knives
Oh, tattoo on us our sin

Wretched survivors, like broken glass
Rise from the ashes to the sky
From the gates, allow us pass,
Allow our souls go by

One last time, in silence sleep
Touch hearts that shatter hard as bone
And in our rage, the darkness reap
That makes us stand alone




Credit must go to Cocaine Jesus and Aodhan for the inspiration ^_^

IN SILENCE SLEEP

Mark 4:39 KJV

And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm.

What to Say...

Once to the belly

Once to the heart

Quick one two, one two

Doubled over on the floor

Begging for less...

Hoping for more

-----

Banana coloured bruises

Lovely

Can't resist pressing them

To relive something of the pain

And pleasure...

Stop Breathing...

Didn't know i could hurt this much and still breathe...almost breathe...spent Thanksgiving with Aodhan...and now that we're apart again, it's like a part of me was ripped off...like i'm bleeding slowly on the inside...i know we'll be together again, i know we will...it just hurts so much...

No Regrets

*click me*

Lay bare my heart
Here I promise
With the thorn pulled from my side
Fingerprints of blood
To love and cherish
Before the rain comes
After the world ends
Forever and all eternity
Blackest void to brightest day
Spiral up
The one I love
Amor de mi alma
Truer feelings hath none
With all my heart
Body, mind, soul, spirit
Every word uttered
A devotion
To you, my love
Here I promise
Forever after
Lay bare my heart...

Slash Dot

We are your nightmares
To have and to hold
Lay waste your comfort...










What, were you expecting it to rhyme?

**************

"Immortality is not impossible, only unrealized."

-Sileny from "A Study in Philosophy"

***EDIT***

The summary of "Study" can be found here. ^_^ looking forward to finishing it.