Dead Leaves

thanx, lost in reason, now you've gotten me started on that writer's psychoanylitical thingy i'd gotten out of. (i can't decide if that's sarcasm or not) but hey, if it gets me writing again, i'll go with it. and for some reason, it's all haiku... great. i don't like haiku cuz it's so structered (but i've been working on vilanelles so whatever). hmmm, what was the question? what do i think of when a dead leaf blows across my path? well, autumn, frost, isolation, loneliness, pain (don't ask), death i suppose. lots really, depends on my state of mind at the moment. and what does everyone else think when they see a dead leaf? i'd really like to know. it's a good question (for obvious reasons). hmm, there is no death without life...

lately i've been on a nature high. which, before anyone thinks i've been smoking grass *ahem*, means that nature and the natural world has been on my mind instead of the usual introspection (the links for annie, and yeah, that was an insult...). and of course the nature i think of is autumn (cuz fall is such an unpoetic word, i know, i know, i'm such a romantic uh, just for those of you who have no idea what that's referring to) and winter. alright, here's the part where i give lease to my inner poet:

Whispers of the wind will touch my hair
And I'll visit you in the morning
Taste the autumn chill on the air
I wonder where I'll be going

anyways, i took an AP test that i absolutley failed yesterday. it was, of course, in my worst class, history. i pretty much gave up halfway through. i mean, it's not like i quit or anything (other people just wrote that they wouldn't write the essays and they didn't even try on the multiple choice) but i kinda just felt like it didn't matter anymore, ya know, that light headed feeling and nothing makes any difference, especially not school work. but i did enough to at least pass if they use a curve... which of course they won't cuz they hate us all and are planning on taking over the world one student at a time. or maybe that's just me.

in biology we get to dissect fetal (yes, again for annie) pigs. so since every other class has gotten to do it before us, and we still won't until friday, i smelled like the room and everyone else in biology: formaldehyde. which isn't really that bad, kinda like paint thinner. but i think that some of the chicks are gonna have problems with it cuz the pigs are pretty big, like just about to be born. and all i can think of is bacon. (i'm kidding! i'm kidding!) it's not that it bothers me, but i mean, we're gonna have to keep them around for two days. i think they might start smelling funny. like the stink bombs that the guys can't resist setting off in their lockers. except those are more sulfur and the...well, never mind, it's not like i'd know what something dead smells like *cough cough*.