Silence and Isolation

As if it all wasn't quiet enough before
What I cannot stop myself from doing
This self-imposed silence
Self-imposed isolation
I let it enter my heart
And rip everything to ribbons
So I taste the pain of nothing
And nothing interprets all to numb
My punishment, I no longer care
No longer feel
But my conscience still speaks
In words too hot to understand
But I do understand
I understand everything it says
(Over the years I've gotten good at hiding)
Words no longer mean communication
I'll speak in looks and motion
And whatever's trapped inside will not be free
So no one could trace it back to my prison
The one place where I'm the most happy
Behind bars and plunged in darkness
(The prison keeper never sleeps)
And I will never have the chance to run
From the inner things I keep denying
(Kaida, stop making it hurt so much)
And I know this is something I've never told you
Because I live in my self-imposed silence
But everything really does hurt me
No matter how much I pretend it doesn't
(I'm only saying this because i'm afraid to be alone)
Damn it all
Self-imposed isolation...